Facing My Fear of Cohabiting!

I had commenced another blog, but have put it on pause as I felt the lessons 'learned' and need to express my sheer terror was far greater...so here you go- Cohabiting!

It was inevitable that after 4 weeks of living in an Indian nature reserve I would be faced with not just an unwelcome visitor but a family of misfits. However spending the night with a venomous creature was and still is very out there! Please be more careful universe when your creating my next challenge!

The flies commenced the room invasion, so even having an afternoon nap became impossible as they buzzed by, each seeing who could skim me. And those who know me, well know how dangerous it is to disturb my sleep in any form!

So I got clever (or so I thought) I kept my door closed all day and closed it quickly each time I entered or left my room and had a wonderful afternoon nap zzzz

So can you imagine my HORROR when I returned to my room after dinner, turned on my lights and was 'greeted' by an AMPLIFIED buzzing, which we know is terrorising when you can't see 'it', but then came the big reveal and the TERROR, hysteria and uncontrolled body movements set in!

Billy the bug as he has now been named (thanks to Sephi) decided to reveal himself, the size of a cockroach but black and yellow and frantically flying around my room. After I freed myself from the initial frantic / crazy lady state, I for some reason ran to my bathroom, thinking I could lur him there, (clearly not thinking that I'd need to also frequent the same room throughout the night).  So lights on in the bathroom, bedroom lights off and I waited but Billy was wiser :(

Billy had landed on a top I had hanging so instead of just swatting him I swivelled to grab a glass and some card to catch him and set him free, but as soon as I spun back around he was now somehow silently GONE.  Plan B in the form of my yoga philosophy I'd studied that morning had taken over...Note to all yogis ahimsa or non-violence, can cause severe TRAUMA! Not sure which was worse the big reveal or knowing he was now silently hiding. 

So I waited and waited and waited until I no longer could, 'twas at this point the frantic searching ensued.  Everything I moved went with a highly adrenal filled movement, like a tiger was about to pounce. So having turned all the lights back on, moved everything and I mean everything in my room Billy was still missing! And a GIANT spider had been discovered.

So I waited some more and nothing. It was at this point that I began to question if I hulisinating, and as amusing as this may sound I'm not joking!!

(Just in case you though I was exaggerating, this is an internet picture of Billy as a baby, even the picture is giving me the creeps!)

So Skype beckoned and between Skype calls by the very dimly lit beside lamp Billy decided to buzz again, I could see his black shadow, lept out of bed and repeated the above attempts and still no Billy, whilst the spider watched amusingly from the ceiling!

So bedtime went like this: half a bottle of my aromatherapy bug oil all over my bed, blanket, pillow, pjs and me, ear plugs (which made it worse) and burying myself under the covers completely, affirmations where said, Billy and the spider where even sent love and compassion (at this point I was prepared to trying ANYTHING).

I somehow awoke freshly the next morning, delighted to be still alive and surprised to be revitalised, I giggled to myself about the night before, and then the buzzing commenced again.

Returning home from yoga I flung my door open, an invitation to Billy to leave and I sat watching the door and waiting but nothing, Billy has vanished, however the flies are back, and I'm attempting to feel grateful for them.

So the moral of the story is:

1) It was actually a giant flying hornet, the type that does actually kill people, so my answer when my dear friend Sephi asked on Skype what's the worst that could happen, I was right...always trust your gut!

2) My adrenal glands now appear to be fully functioning in stressful situations.

3) Ahimsa is a skill which I must master, however I would prefer a different form next time please!

4) I'm ready to go home to Irish bugs now!

Sending love to you all x

Ps Sharing some beautiful sunshine with you all. Sunrise this morning from my bed:)

Trekking To The Temple With Angelic Protection :)

On our day off we decided to go visit the local temple, so we set off on our 2 hour trek trusting we'd find it... my fellow squeaky knew the way to the sign at which point we turned off the main road by the army barracks and commenced our trek through the forest road.

Angels where called upon for protection several times as many random people stood in the forest starting, by passed by several bikes and cars we where the only people walking, a strange and slightly odd sight as any of you have been to India know, and more an eery feeling that accompanied it.

(Check out my photo bombing angel)

But we persevered up the hills round the bends, glares from onlookers in the forest (we where clearly a sight to be seen) after what seemed like a long time walking we reached the next town, questioning if we had missed the temple somehow, as the smell of insense was so strong in a part of the forest.  But it was at this point a cow clunked by with directions for us, drawing out attention to the sign behind him, an angel cow I think!

So we continued on our way through another section of the forest, admiring the beauty of the trees, each one so different, uniquely beautiful, offering shade to us and no glaring bystanders, soon after the temple on the hill came into sight, flags flying and surrounded by the forest.

The temple itself that of Sri Shirdi Saim Baba Mandir was so beautiful, peaceful, sechulded. It is said that when you make a wish at this temple, it will be granted if you where a goodie in your past life. Passing several Ganesha (elephants like gods, for removing obstacles) shrines on the climb up to the temple, each displaying offerings, of flowers and incense. I just loved it:)

When we reached the entrance to the temple we removed our shoes, and there by the doorway lay an offering of three Daisy's, so pretty, so perfect!

Inside the temple itself was dark as the shutters on the windows where all closed, the cool air inside was a welcome comfort from the hot sun outside. The alter that lay under a large portrait held a small bright shining flame, and an array of golden offerings. 

It felt so familiar, so comforting, so much good energy, (like the church we visited up the hill in Arizona, and the old indian ruins back in 2008) secluded, peaceful, perfect!

I placed my offerings in the small alcove to the side of the alter, sat cross legged on the floor and began to absorb the amazing energy.  Having made a wish and sat a little longer I began to blubber, not sad snotty tears, but peaceful pure energy filled tears, I felt like I had arrived home to myself, the most beautiful feeling which has happened only a handful of times....my soul has been touched and my spirit filled with love, so magical, so pure, so powerful.

Whilst leaving the temple an old man appeared and offered us tea, I felt overwhelmed with gratitude, yet could not over come the fear of potential illness and the thought of reliving my cleanse scenario, so I kindly declined and we went on our way, filled with a new sense of light, a purpose, a knowing yet not knowing...a feeling!

This by far has been the most worthwhile part of my trip, I hope to visit the temple again before leaving next week, but if for what ever reason I don't get there I know that I can connect with the amazing energy anywhere....I even have goose bumps writing this!

Feeling grateful for this experience and to my amazing angels, thank you for surrounding me on this healing journey in your beautiful wings of love and protection.

Sending some of this pure loving energy your way xxxx